The world of all things higher-power seems to be speaking to my family again. Over the course of several weeks we have been challenged with the blessings of new life, loss, opportunity, realization, and much more.
Sometimes you just want to scream WHY? We had a plan, we were working on the plan, and the plan seemed to work on us! But Alas that is life right? A journey without end and without reason BUT always full of meaning.
At this time, it is not appropriate to share all the signs from above that have been circulating in our world. Quite honestly because we have not even made any decisions yet. We are simply accepting these new challenges and weighing their importance and trying to understand the meaning and impacts. There is also the possibility that there will be no change to the plan - so there's that!!
Times like this make me grateful for the inner work that I have been focusing on for the better part of five years. When I began my journey my goal was really really simple, I wanted to live a more positive life. Not in the religious sense, I left religion a long time ago - never God, just the building and the people who felt they knew better than God! I was simply sick of being angry, curious about who was going to cross me next, expecting negative experiences “because that was just my luck”, etc. I truly believe now, life doesn't happen to you, it happens for you.
A co-worker named Lindsey is really who inspired this journey, I felt, not sure if she would agree, that life was always working out for her. And though she used the Bible to guide her grace, it was her positive outlook and attitude on life, I felt, that brought her so many blessings! I wanted, and still want to be more like Lindsey!
I practice in many ways to be a more positive person, one thing consistent in all those practices & groups, much like anything in life; when you start a new journey you often feel like you know nothing and you don’t really! Then you are faced with your ego right? And often we are under this pink cloud and we spill our beliefs and new habits into all those around us because we now think we know EVERYTHING! If you are strong enough to stay on your journey, when the pink cloud rolls away and you are forced to let go of your ego, you realize you know nothing again. Not the nothing when you started, but the humble nothing, the ego removed nothing, the nothing that allows you to NOT write the ending of every person, experience, and life-happening BECAUSE you know you don’t know.
Then this weekend Ryan and I were listening to Viktor Frankl’s, A Man’s Search for Meaning; and these wise words echoed in our car. A good reminder for us to not try and influence our fate:
“Don’t aim at success — the more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it. For success, like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side-effect of one’s dedication to a cause greater than oneself or as the by-product of one’s surrender to a person other than oneself. Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it. I want you to listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge. Then you will live to see that in the long run—in the long run, I say!—success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think of it.” VikTor Frankl
So here I am, humbly aware I know nothing about what is to come, trying to not influence what is to come, and trying to practice my inner-positivity - subtly reminding myself over and over again, all the answers and strength are already in me to handle what is to come!
Be Kind. Be Positive.